FDAGJVJFFUEJBRVTHDIDK I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU SOUR BITCH, YOU ARE WORSE THAN MY MOTHER AKA THE DEMON INCARNATE. OMFG WHY DO I SPEAK TO YOU?!?

Was told earlier that I don’t know how to be sincere. not sure how I should take that one..

Here’s a new thing I’m gonna try: absolutely not caring about any other person. Ruthless, careless, cruel. Why not? Who blinks when I’m wronged? Who reaches out when I am hurting? Who pats me on the fucking back when I do something good? Or help someone else? Which by the way is all the fucking time, I do more for other people then I’ve ever done for me. Just out of the simple fact that I desperately seek recognition and gratification through others. Pathetic. Im sure this sounds selfish, because others do give a lot to me. And I marvel at their generosity, I truly do. But for most of them there is a reason they do anything for me: sex, social upgrade, later favors. I’m not trying to sound like I’m the Jesus of 2015, I’m so far from it. But I do things for other people, very often, with no reward in mind. But I know most of the people who hit me up have an exact reward in mind. That’s why, despite my spirit being repulsed by the thought, I’m going to act selfishly and without remorse from hence forth. Fuck you, fuck your feelings, fuck your moral code, fuck what you think you know. Nothing but raw from now on, I’ll be the one to sow the seeds of dissidence.